nak kawen

bile bkeliaran kat FB kan,
i jumpe lah page2 my fwen,jiran,
cikgu ke, lect, sedara mara,
sepupu, sepapat,
sepipit..... whomsoever lah!
n bile dah namenye stalker, i suke lah mengikuti...
mengikuti okeh! bukan mengekori atau
mengumpati
perkembangan terbaru mereka.
perkembangan fizikal mahupun
mental atau pkembangan keluarga,
semua i mahu tahu.
jadinye,
terjumpalah ayat2 jiwang lagi
penuh kesayuan bersama
kata2 yg penuh kedasyatan
ttg betapa bahagianya perkahwinan mereka.
WOWwieeeeeee~


saya nak kawen,
boleh tak?

mood

ape yang korang paham pasal mood?
k, sila cakap kat coment, jgn cakap kat post sebab aku je leh post kat sini.
ni kan belog aku, haizzzz~
bila google image MOOD, ni yg menarik perhatian ku.
malas lah nak tenung setiap imej lame2.
aku amek yg ini jeh, colourfool.

aku, sebenarnya,
ni citer. ni hal duit muet.
tak patot cakap sini tp aku dah takde tmpt kot nk cakap.
so, hrap paham la ek.
aku pun dah cam desperate nk mengeluh sebab buya pom amt pnt n sumore bz today.
die pun ta areply msg aku. so amat kasihan padanye yg selame ini selalu je dgr keluh kesah aku.
buya, erm...padahal die n beberapa kerat BFF i je yg bace belog ni.
uhh, tak selesa plak ramai2 bace. takut jd bahan umpatan or.... ade stalker lam idup i.
eh2!
ade ke stalker. setahu aku n rakan2 lain,
aku lah stalker terhandal. :P
hahhaa.

ok, pasal duit,
oh, b4 that.
cik piqa jgn terasa, tiada niat mahu tiru tema entry kamu ye.
hoho~
mmg umur2 cam kite duk pikir duit je kot.

ok gini, kembali ke pangkal jalan...
hurm....
dalam mase aku cuti ni,
dah RM3000 aku spend.
woooooooooooahhhhhhhhhh~
ade sape2 kesah duit aku?
takde. sebab ape?
sebab duit tu berlalu utk kpntingn bersama.
ok fine.
masalah sekarang, biler duit berlari2 umpama paip air JPA yg pecah kat
kawasan Hulu Tganu tnpa dipendulikan 'penduduk',
aku sbg org yg rumahnya 'terputus bekalan'
rase cam penduduk kampung tak prihatin saja.

oh...oh.....
pening bgini.
then!
tibe2 mood berniaga telah H.I.L.A.N.G!
where are u mood?
ellow! mood? oh, mr.Mono...
eh bukan2! oh, mr.Mood.
(mr.Mono pon aku cari gak till now)

bisnes tu really helps actually.
walaupun untung seposen dua, tapi ok lah kan dr tiada.
tapi bile i did the math,
wahlaaaaaaaaaaaaaooooo!
gile byk kot expenses aku!
habis kotor buku ASB. tension lah gini.
sampai pekerja CIMB kat mydin sume kenal i,
kuarkan duit RM4k in these several recent months.
blom kira other saving acc.
giler2!

ah... tolong lah.
sgt malas nk business, tp expenses ade saja.
sumber lain pula tiada.
buka spend suka2 pom.
kalau boleh aku citer straight kat sini, nk je.
tp tak bek.... tak leh, tak leh.
baya n buya je phm kot....

pls.... pls mr.Mood.
dtg la sekarang....
bisnes dah tak ramai customer....
sedeynyew.....
tmph label tak siap2. duit da bayar....
byk nye dugaan,....
tmph gerai konvo dah ful.... :'(
pasal gerai konvo, leter ade mse i citer......

"....mamak, bagi i MOOD sekati!
kurang manis ye. cepat sikit!"

cukup INDAH

dalam kete na g mam.
tetibe dgr lagu ni kat HOT.
dengar sekali je, terus hafal corus.
ok, jatuh hati!

nah,
utk kamoo smua yang saya sayang....

Lirik Lagu Cukup Indah - Alif Satar

Tak pernah aku jauh darimu
Meninggalkan cinta kita
Tak pernah aku meluka hatimu
Perasaan dan jiwamu
Segalanya telah ku serah
Hanya engkau terindah

Korus
Hanya kerna kau yang cukup indah
Untuk dimiliki dan untuk dicintai
Ku tahu kau mahu ada di hati
Untuk didampingi untuk disayangi

Tiada yang lain selain dirimu
Kekal tinggi di hatiku
Tiada pengganti yang mampu ku cari
Yang secantik diri kamu
Cinta ini untuk dirimu
Rasa ini untukmu

Ulang Korus

Hanya kerna kau yang cukup indah
Untuk dimiliki dan untuk dicintai

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

benci

saat aku tulis entry ini,
aku sedang sibuk mgedit gambar.
task yg membuatkan aku tulis pelbagai perkara tidak berasas di FB.
aku benci,
B.E.N.C.I.

mengapa perlu aku kecewa dgn janji palsu mereka?
aku tidak mengerti...

aku juga kecewa dgn 'persekitaran'ku yg mendesak.
tidak memahami.
menyesakkan.

aku B.E.N.C.I.

tidak pernah terlintas rase benci sehebat ini di kalbu ku.
tapi aku tewas...
tiada sabar mengiringi.
aku terus menangis tanpa dipujuk.
hati aku terus merintih tanpa difahami.

aku B.E.N.C.I.

mengapa perlu aku bazirkan air mata ini utk
satu rase jijik yg perlu aku tggalkan?
aku sendiri tiada jawapannya.

tapi hati aku terus berkata-kata.
terus....dan masih.
tanpa henti ia membuakkan rase B.E.N.C.I
yang amat!
pada, dia, dia, mereka
dan kalian.....

aku rase seperti tersungkur,
dalam debu yg berterbangan....
ahhh~ menyesakkan.
aku gagal bernafas.
aku tak mampu berkata.
tp hati aku menjerit2!!!!
meronta2!

harus aku pergi.
campak saja aku jika aku bukan pilihan kamu,kamu
dan juga, jika kamu.
usir aku dr hidupmu.
jgn jerat aku dlm rantai derita.
lepaskan aku.
lepaskan AKU!

aku sesak.....
gagal bernafas............................

business dan business

hurm... bila dah mula berniaga nih,
mmg tak leh beremti!
haih....
sebenarnya, baru lepas gi menjaja di blog2 lain.
jalan ke hulu, samapai ke hilir....
tiba2 terjumpa,long drape puffed sleeves cardi.
wah2, pasti gadis2 di luar sana dah tau
apekah cardi yg dimaksudkan, auwwww~

sebnrnya,
i mahu jual ini cardi sebab i yg mau pakai! huahuahahah!
penting tau kalau kita nakkkkkk sangatttttt
menda itu dan mjadikan bahan jualan.
mesti kita leh tulis testimonial yg ikhlas
lagi jujur dr hati ms mengupload barang tersebut! ;D
*tibe2 buat muka suci :P

lagipun,
leh jimat skit kan.... :P
bukan sj kos pos jimat,
malah, kos barnag pon jimat lah
sebab leh dpt harga borong.
silap ari bulan, jual ngn kawan2 pom harga borong...
sebab kira dah btuah ade org nak beli n sumore
tak yah nak upload pic n bagai2 mende.
stuju tak? stuju tak?

klau korang di tmpt i pon,
i guess u all will feel the same lah.
bygkan, korang tengah sengkek cam aku sekarg.
tapi nafsu mbeli tetiba hadir.
sure punye nak beli brg yg diimpikkan ngn harga murah, rite?

so, salah satu kaedah, ialah berusaha....
niaga ni usaha la kan? :P
hehe~

ades....
sekarang,
mahu wat preorder....
cari sape mahu beli.
harap2 ade lah customer sket....
teringin banget mahu yg itu.

oh,
bTW,
nnt i nak citer baju yang paling i ske!
ha, knp pilih tajuk ni?
sebab ni lah first time beli baju tanpa pikir pnjg,
tapi amaaaaaaaaaatttttt puas hati!
sabar ye, nnt i update siap ngn gambau lg! :)

k, la...
tata~
♥♥♥♥♥

1 demi 1.....

semua perkara baik manjauhi aku,
lalu aku cuba mencegah mereka.

wajarkah?
adakah itu bputus harap??

entry,pict,sife....

kalau korang bace belog ini,
ever since i've started blogging, i kept telling u negative stories, aite?
i'm so negative emotionally. :(
sorry peeps, i may not be ur fav blogger.

i do love entries with colourfull picts.
i really2 do.
(ouch, cam lagu atomic kitten lak! :P )

tapi,
blum mase lg kot utk amek2 gmba then upload cz
dah slalu aje wat gi utk kedai.
byk fail gambar blom manage.
gmba projek kemboja yg dak2 $!%# hampeh tu nak
pun blum bg lg.
i'm so disappointed with them!
promising good even best thing but at the end,
NOTHING.
totally NOTHING!
it so weird when the one that relate to the program is a religious man
and women yet didn't tell anything about the cancellation.
i already update my passport n my mum already change new passport booklet
since hers is already ages and definitely not entitle for several country as such Cambodia.
urghhhhh!
silly me and silly them too! +_+

k, lets put aside about that stupid thingy,=.
p/s: i really don't feel like emailng those picts!
let them b.
i'm on HIATUS with UMT job!

ok,
enough2 mumbling...

about entries with picts.
i like them! uhh~
espcially with my pic, hoho~
cz this is my personal territory!
(sorry kira, i owe u a word here :P )
but then,
seems i rarely,
seriously!
i RARELY portrait myself.
no one tends to snap a pic of mine,ouhhh :(
so i simply cant upload even a single pict
for my entry...

n oh!
these recent days,
i kept thinking on having a new blog.
ok2 i admit that i always abandon this blog.
poor buya rite?
yes... why him?
cz he is the most loyal reader here! :P
but then,
about the new blog,
i thought of telling stories about my bussiness
and its flow.
u know, actually tonssss of stories i want to tell u
each day when handling an on9 bussiness.
it's hard...
well, buya will definitely say, "Nothing is easy in this world,dear..."
rite buya? or... no, u wont?
wooops, i'm sorry! :P

so, what do u think peeps?
may i?
hurm, that blog,
i think i want to make special
scheduled-update.
something like i will update once a week
on particular will-be-determined-day later.
so i will simplify all the stories each day
and compile them into week..
who knows, maybe some1 wanted to start
an 0nline or offline bussiness,
they may learn something, rite?
oh, i didn't mean that i'm a good person
for any to refer to, or to learn from,
but every story does has its own
moral, agree?

*pic mase m3x... envy btol tgk pic ni,
nyampah! kuwus gler.... arghhhhhh!

update here darl!

hehe,
saja aku berikan tajuk entry begitu bg menjwb jeritan atau laungan MR.Mono kat cbox sebelah ni.
well, im done blog walking n replying customers order.
yet need to start packing the items paid.
lame rasenye tak guna bhs inggeris.
tbe2 rassa sia2 berusaha mnduduki Muet agar dapat result bk dah berusaha keras dlm SPM supaya semua subject BI (english+EST) dapat A1.
takpe, insyaAllah leh guna utk ajar anak2 mlm2 b4 bedtime.
ade ilmu tak guna, tak elok juga ye?
hehe.

so for today's update, i'll try to use proper english.
even though my grammar is little bit ruptured by time.

actually, sometimes when i do hav things to tell ppl out there, i will first draft my blog 'script' in my heart. i keep talking to myself to ensure all the things i want to write will be written perfectly untill the main objectivessss achieved. but, at the end of the day, i found myself sooooo berwy busy with things that sometimes will not me busy enough to abandon my passion to write in blog and later i simply ignore what i want to tell or to write.

i knew, i really knew that writing in blog doesn't make any,any,ANY different since none reading my blog and i prefer not to let all ppl know about my blog as my personal statements should remain as somethg really personal, rite?
well, ur words actually portrays what is/are in u.
seriously!

i dunt like ppl to judge or to know more about me where else ppl whom i placed them inside in the bottom f my heart should no more about me. so no wonder if i am comfortable enough for not obtaining more readers as i really appreciate what i already have now. tq.

well, get back to what actually i want to tell u here is, i am badly wanting ppl to capture my pic. since,... i guess i didn't take proper pic for ages for myself.
i think it's time for me to reward myself with beautiful picts (even i am totally not a beautiful person). i used to capture photos of beautiful scenery and ppl since i done travelling a little while these recent weeks.

but yet, none of them is my pic. well, maybe i shall let the time past and once i have money, i may hired a pro photographer to capture the day when i be someone's wife. :P
really hoping for that moment ;)

as my holiday left about a month, still.... many thgs need to be settled.
mum ask me to slow down iin doing bussiness but i just can't. i was in love with business thingy even sometimes it makes me down.

when i do blog-walking, i came across many beautiful things in other persons' life as i always did come across.... the same nice, awesome stories over n over again rotating from one to another blogger. well life is kinda wheel.ppl always mention that. :P
but not for me i guess.

people whom read my blog (if there is any, ok!) will saying how sorrow,dusky blog i have with the path of life which is very dull n boring, rite? but nvm, i dunt care. it is still ok for me as long i have ppl around me which love me most n i love them too!

i often thing to run out of GB. i'm sick of it! but then... i believe that my time will come sooner or later, insyaAllah... He determines everything n already decided the best out of us...
i hope i'm strong enough to remain at the same level here as all my friends already past the cross line and found something new in their life. ouh.... i hope to be stonger dear,Allah...
really pray for that. i really want better journey in life with many different places to go and many people to get mingle with.

for any whom read this entry, be thankful with ur life and what u have now. not for u to be proud with, but for u to appreciate anyhow things u currently hav n currently belonging is the grastest gift from Him. tq for reading this. Jazakillahu khairan....

nonetheless,
He had given things he wanted us to have
in very unique way for each n every
particular person.

wAllahualam...

dunia oh dunia

lame tidak update belog.
kalau update pon, bukan ada yg mau baca.
semua cerita sedih yg penuh sangsi
dan lakaran prejudis dlm hidup i yg sgt NEGATIF.

ade yg mau baca?
mgkin hnyDIA yg mbaca.
takpe lah. hanya Dia, DIa dan DIA
yang aku ada.

tibe2, semangat nak berniaga hancur.
habis. padam.
langsung tak tersisa.
knp?
sebab...... oh takpe, bakal menabur dosa mengumpat
barangkali.

tapi ini HAKIKAT dunia.
ramai gemar mbaca wacana indah.
coretan entah bila yang direntap
dr memori seorang blogger.
walhal, bukan smua yg bkisar dlm hidupnya indah.
mungkin, ada ketika,
hidupku yang sunyi spt pengemis bahagia ini
1000 kali lbh indah....
tapi,
masing2.
bergantung atas individu.
takpe. aku pejamkan sahaja mata yg pnuh ngn
titisan air mata ini.
biar ku kenang pahit dunia.
agar ku dambakan manisnya syurga.

Ya Allah.
aku sangat lemah ketika ini.
bantu lah aku.
ku dambakan sang Tenang
dan si Damai.
agar ia bertandang tanpa pergi.......