sorry

dear readers,
i m sorry for anything wrote and will be written on this blog.
i may hurt u.
or i've hurt u so much.

i'm so sorry.
i just being honest,
for what i feel and think about.

again,
i'm trully sorry for any possible reason
caused by any post posted here.

bad

i dunno why... suddenly i felt so empty. my world is dusky.
completely murky.

actually,
it starts when i went for a blog-n-facebook walking.
it's been quite a while since i dunt do this kind of 'activity'.
well, i got spinal cord prob act, cant sit for so long till my body n legs feel numb.

so, i went to many blogs n facebook-profiles.
i found the belonging of many people that ever came into my life or i went to theirs,maybe?

but then,
i aware of something.

my heart is no longer strong.
it is easily ruptured and torn by conditions
through times and spaces.

hurm,
u know, when we read other people stories,
sometimes we have a bad feeling.
ENVY, maybe.
uh, dunt tell me that u r so perfect
and u r internally strong
so that u never come across
with such silly childish feeling.

come on....
it is a feeling.
so it can be controlled.
for better, worse or....anything!

i know this is bad
and this is wrong.

but sometimes,
u know what,
even we know the thing is negative,
we still having them weather as a n action or belonging.
subjective or concrete.

i'm not an angle,
neither you out there is.

but i hope u know what i feel.
even if u didnt understand.

cz blog is my dear diary.

which never exist
as an alibi
yet it is a witness of
my life's path.

i wish i can write more.
telling the world how innocent i am
for having this feeling.
and how
this feeling
comes by nature.
yet, i bet the world won't understand,
cz even my love ones do.

i know it is bad,
and i'm sorry...

how i wish to be happy.
for peace filling the porosity of my heart.

i want to be happy.
i deserve to be happy.
i'll find the happy the last breath of me.

even if i dont found it,
the quest of my effort
will be the one.

i will,
i
will.

tak nak study!

saya betul2 tak de mood nak study.
tak nak,
tak nak,
tak nak.....
....tatau kenape.

tolong la,
tak nak study.
tak penah wase gini.

siyeshly...

FB

k, suda ade fb ye kawan2....
haha.

actually,
manyak menda sangat3 na citer,
tapi mase tak de.
i'm sowie
(macam la ramai yang nak bace ape aku tulis ;P )

nanti ye....
ibu tell u the bed-time stories.

luv u dear readers,
tata~

hobby

today, after looooooooong lecture hour
of continuous approximately 6 hours,
i try to find something
that able to
make me smile instantly.

somehow,

i didn't found any?

what should i do?

i just missplaced my hobby
and i dun't have any, now.

i need
and
i want

a
HOBBY.

help me.
i'm suffering inside!
i kept disturbing other people
during my 'not-that-so-free'-time.
espseciall, YOU!

hahahha (ni real kelakar!)

hurm,
sesudah siap report PITA Dr Edlic kesayangan,
i terus rase lega. fushhh~~
lalu,
sementara tenet masih lagi ter'connect,
i pom berjalan2 la secara maya.
tapi post yang plg besh yang i jumpe boleh dibace seperti di bawah yek!
i ingt i je wase gitu....
rupenye ade jugak owg wase gitu.
heheh~
sWEEEeeT~

*k, di bawah ni, memang copy paste trus.
sorry ye Auntie Nani,huhuh~

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MODEL 80AN di post yang bertajuk,
Nak Buat Macam Mana Yer?

Minta maaplah yer....hari ini teman nak labun dalam loghat perak. Kighenyer idok le yang pekat barat tu. Bukan nyer ape...udah teman ni kawen dengan orghang perak...tak banyok sikit ader le terpengarghoh jugak nak bercakap dalam bahasa deme.

Tapi yang tak berape nak sedap tu...bile anak-anak teman ni nakei.!!!, dok mengajuk teman bercakap bahasa bapak deme.

Ate kat ghomah tu, kalau dalam sehaghi tu ader le dekat seratuih sepuluh kali teman teroyak kat deme sughoh deme ni naik kataih ghomah. Kalau teman kabor 'ataih' deme perbetoikan, mama atas bukan ataih.

Kalau deme ndengor teman cakap 'lepaih' pande deme negor, mama lepas bukan lepaih.

Kalau teman kate panaih deme negor, mama panas bukan panaih.

Hisk tak bagi chan langsung teman nak meluweh kan ilmu pelbagai bahasa gamak nyer.

Yang iye nye, ate ropa tu jugok dengan laki teman ni..kalau teman nak mengajor anak-anak cakap bahasa jawa, idok le pulak dibaginyer. Kate nyer, nanti sorang-sorang dia nyer yang tak paham bahasa hehhe. Dia? minta maap la yer..tak kan nak ngambek tau...nak belajor? idok ler..... nak buat macam mana udah tak berkenan dengan bahasa tu...

Eh ralit beno teman labun bahasa perak ni...bahasa perak ni berlagu...itu yang tak tahan anak-anak teman ndengor nyer.Yang teman pulak suker yang amat ndengor nyer...macam orang berpuisi la pulak....damai rasa kat ati....

wahahahahhahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hilaian sawan)

k, dah stat berblog,
dah macam tak leh beremti plak....
ketagihan,ketagihan!

banyak gile asigment.
ade trial exam lagik....
huaaaaarrggggggggghhhhhhh!!! *menguap macam drakula kebuhsana

bile mau rehat nim....
28 mac udah final. +_+
hape nak jawab pom ta tau.
byk btol masalah.

owg lain macam ok2 je.
tapi yang ok pada owg lain,mst
takkan jadi ok nye ngn saya.
pelik....

diberi peluang pom payah.
tak berpeluang pom susah....

hidup susah,
mati pom lagiiiiii susah...!

so how??

buntu la.
wase macam nak extend pom ade! menyampoh~

i need a break.
i need some time for myself....
i should be given my own space.

k,k....
enough of being soooo demanding.

live life,as what im living now.
tensi pom,tensi la....
mengeluh pom, bukan ade hasil.
buat sumenye jadi makin rumit ade la.
owg pom akan pkir saye ni gile....
macam tensi tak tentu pasal aje.

k, la.
ni update saje nak berleter....
hahah!
puas ati aku! *sila gelak dengan KEJAM